Waiting… for change

So, I have already fallen off the “post my blog every week” wagon…

I have been letting the waves of hormones and weariness wash over me.  I’ve been doing almost nothing, and like I have found often, life has been leaving me alone to take care of things. 

This is something I noticed early on in my massage therapist career.  There are ebbs and flows, and you have to go with them.  People always need my services when I have an expense coming up, whether I know it or not.  When I need to take care of things, I get “time off”.  It makes one budget, but you learn to honor the different phases of life.

I have been helping so many people to transition through stressful times over the last couple of years that I was getting over burned out and also needing to segue into something else myself. 

When one finds oneself in need of caffeine to make it through the day, it’s time to reevaluate things… especially when one’s health is posing questions about serious issues… Then it’s time to quit, and find something else that works better for you. 

It took me a while until things worked out to make the changes I could.  It was a matter of timing.  So I have gotten worse before I could get better while biding my time.  But I was looking for my “out” all the while trying to survive tug of war between daily grinding myself down and pushing with assertiveness to make money. 

I have gotten to the place where I’m now in the position that so many of my clients find themselves when they come to me for help.  “Broken”.  It’s my turn to remember what that feels like and I think that is a good thing if you make a living helping people, to BE there again.

So, I have been letting myself sleep a lot and slowly putting my house in order, really and metaphorically, as I reclaim my energy.  As I get a little bored, a sign that I’m better, I have done stuff.  I dig through an accumulated pile here, unload the dishwasher there… I’ll have a schedule again next week, for this week, I’m just here and it has been nice.  : – )

Let it be…

… Sorry, guys. I have been loafing on the writing, but I’m not really apologizing.

It’s spring. I have been working too hard. There are lots of activities this time of year. Without sufficient air conditioning, I wasn’t been sleeping. And maybe it was the powerful full moon… but last week it all hit critical shutdown. Lights out. Done!

I spent most of last week either staring blankly or pushing myself through what had to be done. I had been running on fumes.

… As a massage therapist, I went to a continuing education class called medical massage. And even though the teacher was nationally known, they rambled and were unorganized, and I wasn’t getting a lot out of the class.

(I have learned that there are content/skill classes, and then there are those I come home with an overall thought that grows and gives my practice a whole new light on things.)

That weekend the thought I came away with was that the primary focus for massage should be so the client can rest, because sleep is where the body heals itself.

All the critical catching up in the body happens while we are not pouring all our energy into “being brilliant” as one of my Theatre professors used to say, going at “Mach 1”.

The downshifting of gears allows for the body to clean up the crazy mess left from going all day. There are metabolic waste garbage routes that need to be cleared, nerves need to reboot, and the blood “train” moves things around, bringing supplies where they need to be for the next day.

I have heard a well-known fitness trainer say that the most ignored part of physical fitness is insufficient recovery time.

When the body is facing a health crisis, it is even more imperative for this slower speed, and better nutrition. But many people reach for things to keep them going when they think they can’t stop, and sometimes life does demand this of us. … You probably aren’t going to ignore the 2 a.m. babies cries, even though you have to go to work in the morning. But 2 years of this will be a problem! – And you will be a wreck…

I think that life should have ebbs and flows, even though I am still working on it!

Take a moment to chill just to enjoy the sun and not going. You might feel even better when you get back into the thick of things. : – )